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I've been really depressed lately. I felt suicidal a couple times last week. I'm on medication but it's not working very well yet. I think one of my biggest problems is that I hate myself... I have my reasons and my friends tell me I'm a great person and all but it's a real problem for me and I don't understand why I hate myself. Anyway, I talked to a great friend I met online and he told me that I should see this as a disorder, and it's not something I can just "understand"... that helps me to get a handle on it... I need to find a way to minimize this self hate disorder. It's ruining my life.