Back Out Of The Pit Of Despair | ohioscott's Blog

I saw the doctor who prescribed Zoloft for my depression and after talking he determined that the medication is helping me feel my emotions and that's good... I just need to handle them better now. He suggested I see my therapist more often so he can help me handle stuff thats going on in my life. So now I'm seeing him every other week for the next couple months. Because of the bad decisions of my past I don't have insurance so I get my medical from a local "Health Ministry" at no charge but I have to pay my therapist out of pocket (ouch). Well anyway, I feel much better than I did last week, but I still have moments when I feel upset for no apparent reason,.. I just kind of realize that is not a valid emotion and let it go. Hopefully I can keep doing that.

I don't understand why I feel like I want to be dead sometimes... I wasn't suicidal, but I also didn't want to live. It really confuses me why that happened... It was so sudden. Hmm, maybe I'll post something on a suicide group board just to maybe express it and hopefully get some good feedback.

Well, that's it for now... I'm restricting this view to friends only. Thanks for your friendship, I'm glad to have you (both). UPDATE: I decided to post this as a public blog.