Back In The Pit | ohioscott's Blog

Well, here I am again... I'm just not getting anywhere in life. I asked my wife if she would let me get some wine and she asked me if it was ok if she moved out. You know, after my mom and brother died last summer, I did some drinking... I got a little too wasted and she responded by planning to leave me and by not supporting me. After talking to my shrink, I told her that I wouldn't drink again until she could trust me to be responsible. Well, she never plans to let me drink again, because she will never trust me again. I asked her if I coud get some wine 2 days ago, she is still acting distant. I don't feel loved anymore, Not by her... not by God. I get my love from people online that never met me... And the people that know me, don't seem to want to be around me... whats the message from this? To know me is to NOT love me? I just don't understand... But I do know I'm sad.